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“Yet amid all these
things we are more than conquerors
through Him who has loved us. For I am convinced that
neither death nor life, neither the lower ranks of evil angels
nor the higher, neither things present nor things future,
nor the forces of nature, nor height nor depth,
nor any other created thing, will be able to
separate us from the love of God which
rests upon us in Christ Jesus our Lord.”
Romans 8:37-39 (WNT)
My mother lay on her hospital bed in
the dark as I put lotion on her feet. There wasn’t much else I could do for
her. Thankfully, the morphine dulled the pain in her cancer-ridden body. She
was dying.
“That feels good,” she told me.
“I’m glad,” I replied. I wanted our last
moments together to be good ones. A wall erected when I was a child still stood
between us—tall and wide and thick—though neither of us acknowledged it.
Ten minutes passed before my mother
spoke again.
“Forgive me,” she said quietly.
“Whatever could I have to forgive you
for…” I began. But I knew.
“For not stopping them. For letting
them hurt you.” she said..
When I’d tried to talk to her in the
past, she shushed me and said things like: “I can’t take you to the hospital.
The police will put him in jail.” “Your father will have a heart attack.”
“He’ll kill your brother.” “You’re
disturbed.” “That’s just
craziness.”
Not only had she not intervened, my
mother had instigated the abuse by putting me in the line of fire: complaining
to my father that I didn’t practice scales on the piano, by insisting I clean
my brother’s room…
The old scenes flashed back, but they
no longer hurt. As I became an adult, I’d begun to see my mother’s fearfulness,
to understand her.
“I forgive you,” I said, but stopped
myself from saying more. The time for all that had long since passed.
“I…I…I didn’t love you enough,” she
whispered.
My mother was telling the truth.
Her fear had kept her from loving me
enough to protect me, but she had loved me enough to make sure I went to church,
and that’s where I met someone whose love is perfect and casts out all fear,
whose love is more than enough not only for me, for all of us. A Grateful Believer
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